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Me and a Gun
And a Man on my Back
Created on 2001-07-16 02:56:33 (#251169), last updated 2004-05-04
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Basic Info| Name: | Not Waving but Drowning |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 06-18 |
| Location: | ta' l-ibragg, swieqi, Malta |
| Website: | Angelblade |
BioLive fast and die young
Living off second-hand junk.
Hey you passive chain-smoker
Inhale all their shit.
No drug will save you
Might as well quit.
Black walls push in
And your insides are torn apart;
Put on display.
You're betrayed by your heart.
Fire-water blisters my skin.
My backbone curves in.
The music is my drug
I inject it, ingest it
And I feel alive.
My air-guitar hangs by my bed
Condemn my individuality
Borderline insanity.
Love me and throw me away
There is not much I could say.
Kill my spirit
And hang me out to dry.
©Davinia Hamilton, 2003
you want art?
http://thiswaste.deviantart.com/
http://www.allpoetry.com/poets/mercysenemy
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destructive, drained, disturbed, unique, individual, obsessive, intense, impulsive, stressed, musician, performer, grrl, anti-social, uncomfortable, expressive, strange, songwriter, student, secretive, teenaged, bitch, faithless, sensitive, reserved, quick, witty, intelligent, passionate, independent, gemini, weird, unaccepted, ambitious, open-minded, bisexual, caucasian, loyal, idealist, music-whore, vocalist, depressed, twisted, cynical, sarcastic, poetic, artistic, creative, clever, bored, angry, lonely, friend, moody, rebellious, unappreciated, erratic, anarchist, inspired, uncommunicative, vegetarian, daughter, cousin, neice, granddaughter, feminist, grunge, dreamer, hateful, loving, empathic, sympathetic, apathetic, paranoid, musically-inclined, talented, different, bemused, amused, tired, opinionated, pensive, spontaneous, undiagnosed
These are the things that make me feel warm inside:
-Walking in the rain
-Playing LP records
-Receiving (regular)mail
-Receiving phone calls from old friends
-Thought-provoking conversations
-The rain beating at my window at night
-Staying up to watch the sun rise
-Or watching the sun set with a loved one
-Fresh Blank Notepads, waiting to be written on
-Long, slow kisses
-Walking around musical instrument shops
-Reading things I'd written long ago
-Having my neck kissed
-People playing with my hair
-Learning new things
-Falling asleep to Pink Floyd's "Marooned"
-Receiving comments
-Especially Compliments
-Performing
-Being in a costume
-The early-morning smell of coffee and toast
-Waking up and realising I can sleep longer
-Lying on the roof at midnight and looking at the stars
-The way his goatee brushes against my cheek when he's hugging me
-Planning our fantasy future
-Kisses from Cleo
-Weighing myself and finding I've lost weight
-Photographs
Can't tell heaven from hell
I can't pull this off so well
Keep me from hurting myself
In the end we'll all just burn
Taking it in turns to burn.
I am ME, nothing more. Nothing less.
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This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world.
Every finger in the room
is pointing at me
Every day
I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you.
She's been everybody else's girl
Maybe one day she'll be her own.
Me and a gun
and a man
On my back.
She had a january world
So many storms not right somehow
How a lion becomes a mouse
By the woods.
Had a northern lad
Well not exactly had
guess you go too far
When pianos try to be guitars
I feel the west in you
And I feel it falling apart too
Don't say that you Don't
And if you could see me now.
She's well acquainted with the touch of the velvet hand
Like a lizard on a window pane.
You could taste heaven
perfectly.
Woke up to a world
that I am not a part
except when I can play
its stranger.
You must go in again carbon
made only wants to be unmade.
he said, first let's just
unzip your religion down.
You caught me lingering
in another girl's paradise,
The way she paints the world
I want that in my life
What i want is not to want what isn't mine
but i am desire when it all is said and done.
©Tori Amos and Nine Days
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black_bird
I'm the girl who suffers from Insomnia, but still sleepwalks...
The one who's scared of blood, but still cuts.
What else should I write?
I don't have the right!
Peace, Love, empathy
Living off second-hand junk.
Hey you passive chain-smoker
Inhale all their shit.
No drug will save you
Might as well quit.
Black walls push in
And your insides are torn apart;
Put on display.
You're betrayed by your heart.
Fire-water blisters my skin.
My backbone curves in.
The music is my drug
I inject it, ingest it
And I feel alive.
My air-guitar hangs by my bed
Condemn my individuality
Borderline insanity.
Love me and throw me away
There is not much I could say.
Kill my spirit
And hang me out to dry.
©Davinia Hamilton, 2003
you want art?
http://thiswaste.deviantart.com/
http://www.allpoetry.com/poets/mercysenemy
----------------------------------------
-------------------------------------------------
destructive, drained, disturbed, unique, individual, obsessive, intense, impulsive, stressed, musician, performer, grrl, anti-social, uncomfortable, expressive, strange, songwriter, student, secretive, teenaged, bitch, faithless, sensitive, reserved, quick, witty, intelligent, passionate, independent, gemini, weird, unaccepted, ambitious, open-minded, bisexual, caucasian, loyal, idealist, music-whore, vocalist, depressed, twisted, cynical, sarcastic, poetic, artistic, creative, clever, bored, angry, lonely, friend, moody, rebellious, unappreciated, erratic, anarchist, inspired, uncommunicative, vegetarian, daughter, cousin, neice, granddaughter, feminist, grunge, dreamer, hateful, loving, empathic, sympathetic, apathetic, paranoid, musically-inclined, talented, different, bemused, amused, tired, opinionated, pensive, spontaneous, undiagnosed
These are the things that make me feel warm inside:
-Walking in the rain
-Playing LP records
-Receiving (regular)mail
-Receiving phone calls from old friends
-Thought-provoking conversations
-The rain beating at my window at night
-Staying up to watch the sun rise
-Or watching the sun set with a loved one
-Fresh Blank Notepads, waiting to be written on
-Long, slow kisses
-Walking around musical instrument shops
-Reading things I'd written long ago
-Having my neck kissed
-People playing with my hair
-Learning new things
-Falling asleep to Pink Floyd's "Marooned"
-Receiving comments
-Especially Compliments
-Performing
-Being in a costume
-The early-morning smell of coffee and toast
-Waking up and realising I can sleep longer
-Lying on the roof at midnight and looking at the stars
-The way his goatee brushes against my cheek when he's hugging me
-Planning our fantasy future
-Kisses from Cleo
-Weighing myself and finding I've lost weight
-Photographs
Can't tell heaven from hell
I can't pull this off so well
Keep me from hurting myself
In the end we'll all just burn
Taking it in turns to burn.
I am ME, nothing more. Nothing less.
----------------------------------------------
This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world.
Every finger in the room
is pointing at me
Every day
I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you.
She's been everybody else's girl
Maybe one day she'll be her own.
Me and a gun
and a man
On my back.
She had a january world
So many storms not right somehow
How a lion becomes a mouse
By the woods.
Had a northern lad
Well not exactly had
guess you go too far
When pianos try to be guitars
I feel the west in you
And I feel it falling apart too
Don't say that you Don't
And if you could see me now.
She's well acquainted with the touch of the velvet hand
Like a lizard on a window pane.
You could taste heaven
perfectly.
Woke up to a world
that I am not a part
except when I can play
its stranger.
You must go in again carbon
made only wants to be unmade.
he said, first let's just
unzip your religion down.
You caught me lingering
in another girl's paradise,
The way she paints the world
I want that in my life
What i want is not to want what isn't mine
but i am desire when it all is said and done.
©Tori Amos and Nine Days
------------------------------------------------
for my poetry, lyrics and /or artwork, check out
black_bird |
my adopted Sea-Monkey! |
I'm the girl who suffers from Insomnia, but still sleepwalks...
The one who's scared of blood, but still cuts.
What else should I write?
I don't have the right!
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