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[04 May 2004|06:34pm] Time for a change. I'm moving. thiswaste Only comment if you really want to be in. Don't comment if you just want to have another name in your friends list. 10 hang me out to drys take advantage

for friends [14 Apr 2003|11:22am] [ mood | blank ] [ music | tori amos- sorta fairytale ] I've been contemplating this decision for ages. And I've decided. I'm going to clean up my friends list, and make this journal mainly friends only. So yeah kids. Friends Only. Comment if you want to be added. 70 hang me out to drys take advantage

i can be your hero [14 Apr 2003|12:14am] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | norvana- dive ] carcaders piss me off. I can't stand not being able to go out without being trampled on by drunk "celebrators". Fuckers. They have nothing better to do with their time. 1 hang me out to dry take advantage

[13 Apr 2003|02:10pm] im confused because: I scored 47½% on the classic 400 Point Purity Test! Take the test here! uhmmm... i didnt lie! lol Vanilla coke owns you 5 hang me out to drys take advantage

steamed hot towel on my face [12 Apr 2003|01:23pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | nirvana- floyd the barber ] not much to say. was studying, will go out tonight. my sim's house is on fire take advantage

blondiee [11 Apr 2003|11:55pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | nothing ] My boyfriend is a blonde. Yes. Matt highlighted his hair. It's long and blonde. Love! 5 hang me out to drys take advantage

You're only coming through in waves... your lips move, but I can't hear what you're saying [11 Apr 2003|06:56pm] [ mood | relaxed ] [ music | pink floyd-comfortably numb, bush-glycerine, him-join me ] Man, I love Pink Floyd. Particularly this song. It can make me feel hopeful or suicidal... it alternates unpredictably. I love it. I wish I could make music like this.. It's amazing. What frustrates me is, is I spend hours on end sitting on my bed with my guitar and a blank pad of paper and a pen in my hands. I strum... always to the same chords... Em, G, D, C... always to the same rhythm. Always playing Polly. Never being able to compose my own songs. And when I do manage to reach into my heart and write a song, I sing it twice, and it sickens me, so I scrap it. I feel accomplished though, because I just had art lessons and I drew this wonderful piece. It's a silhouette of a woman, over a yellow ochre background. The twist is... she's a peacock... and her tail looks like fire. Maybe she's a phoenix. Yes, she's a phoenix. She's immortal. She will burst into flames and be resurrected. I'm still finding it hard to think that school is over. I never have to go back there again. Never. Well except once to hand in the Computer Project to the teacher. Still... You know, I'll miss it. A lot. I'll even miss the teachers. I'll miss lessons. I'll miss passing notes and etching Band Names into my desk. I'll miss even the girls I couldn't stand. But I'm strangely happy.. excited about the future. I don't get this feeling a lot... but now I'm free. All I have to do is complete these exams. By June I'll be free. And next October I will start Junior College... and I'll finally be part of a clique of people with similar tastes to mine. I'll go to concerts... maybe even participate in Battle of the Bands... I'll get to study Philosophy and Sociology. I'll get to finish my A levels, and then I'll be headed for university. Or perhaps I'll try my hardest to get a scholarship to RADA... my dream. I love music and I love theatre and art and Literature. I am going to become famous. Mark my words. Matt should be coming over very soon. I can't wait! I miss him so much... haven't seen him in 4 days... I love him so much. Laine and I have decided that if tomorrow we both get drunk, we're going to meet up at the Park and make out! lol. Give em a show. I don't know whether to be flattered or scared... she said she's wanted to kiss me for a long time... uhm... it's all a bit of fun to me. She is my best friend... we're very very close. Anyway. I'll stop talking 3 hang me out to drys take advantage

god he knows my days, so im not allowed to change [11 Apr 2003|01:08pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | wintermoods ] I went to school for the mass... well... to see my friends for the very last time. I guess it hasn't really sunk in yet. Uhm, Laine, Genzora and I went to Burger King, we ate, and here I am now, home again. I have art pretty soon... PLUS i need to shower so yeah. Wheee. take advantage

[10 Apr 2003|01:38pm] and this is matt ;) and clothed: 4 hang me out to drys take advantage

imagine you're a girl [10 Apr 2003|01:23pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | ani difranco- not a pretty girl, hole- best sunday dress ] I scored 55¾% on the classic 400 Point Purity Test! Take the test here! That was an um... interesting test. Well. This morning was the last official day of school. We had the school leaving assembly... Leanne and I sang Angel by Sarah Mclachlan and everyone cried. I cried too... but only for about five minutes. I dunno... I guess it just hasn't sunk in. Plus I was never close to the girls who I've gone to school with. But it's weird... I'll never see these people every morning again... and I'll never wear my uniform again... I won't be going to to school... no more english lessons, no more school plays... It's weird and I can't imagine it. On the up side, our whole class has made peace. Finally. My dad and mom were acting like nothing happened yesterday. He got me the dvds of the Twighlight Zone. I don't understand. I wish it was tomorrow cos I wish Matt were here. Tomorrow is election day. God, Malta's gonna be in a real bad state after tomorrow. Ank asked if I wanted to go and sing backing for his band when they play live. I said Okay sure. I mean, it'll be fun. Man we are So going to work on Adrena|ina in summer... it's always been my dream to have a band so I won't let it fade away.I have a french exam at 5. Wish me luck. Then maths private lessons. YUK!!! 2 hang me out to drys take advantage

[09 Apr 2003|02:34pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | nothing ] shit... this is a teary day... im just gonna have fits of crying. im so sick of everything 1 hang me out to dry take advantage

[08 Apr 2003|09:16pm] I just drew this. It's Matt... anime :) 2 hang me out to drys take advantage

[08 Apr 2003|07:57pm] my model. whooo. im almost naked! 2 hang me out to drys take advantage

the world is a vampire [07 Apr 2003|02:19pm] oh yeah. i went to valletta and bought: a kurdt shirdt a che guevara zip-up a pink floyd shirt go music club 2 hang me out to drys take advantage

soothe the burn [05 Apr 2003|05:32pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | nirvana- i hate myself and I want to die, dumb ] I hope Matt comes here on time... we're going to watch the Recruit, simply because it's in cinema 16 :) I don't know what to wear. I'm too lazy to get up from this chair, but oh well. Enjoy your nights. And think of Kurt 1 hang me out to dry take advantage

It didn't just singe their hair it made it straight [05 Apr 2003|02:09pm] [ mood | morose ] [ music | nirvana- gallons of rubbing alcohol ] Stagecoach was good... Edward said my interpretation of the monologue was "very convincing" so I'm happy that at least I don't suck too bad at acting. I'm stil kind of depressed because of Kurt, but on the whole I'm okay... I have to study really soon and then hopefully I can go out. Yay. I made a really good omelette-sandwich. I can't cook to save my life, but I make good omelettes. On the down side, my nose has decided to stuff up, so I keep sneezing so much. I'll go study now... do my friend's school-leaving copybooks then study *grin* take care take advantage

when i was young i knew everything [04 Apr 2003|02:10pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | verve pipe- the freshman, 10cc- dreadlock holiday..etc ] I went to school at 10:30 this morning... I hated it. Everybody's crying... and I CAN'T CRY! I hate the people there... I can't wait to get out. I have an exam today. Wish me luck. ( surveyness ) 5 hang me out to drys take advantage

trust I seek... and I find in you [04 Apr 2003|12:40am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | metallica- nothing else matters ] Ok so I went to school, played guitar in Mass... Then the whole 5th form went to Hard Rock Cafe. We ate, I feel sick. I got annoyed with the girls, I can't wait to leave school, and they were going to HAVANA *pukes* So I called Matt and asked if I could come over, This at around 11pm He said yes. So I did, and his parents were asleep, so we got into his mom's car and stayed there for like an hour. Man, I love him. And this is our song. I mean, listen to it! goodnight 1 hang me out to dry take advantage

I just had to see was someone watching me? [03 Apr 2003|11:59am] [ mood | lazy ] [ music | iron maiden- the number of the beast ] Tonight I have to go to my school-leaving mass. Joy. I have to play my guitar and sing and generally be happy. Which sucks, because the last thing I need is to go to mass right now. Blah. On the other hand, there's the meal after mass, and I'm allowed out until 1am... meaning even if the meal finishes early, I can stay out with the excuse of "the teachers will be there". Anyway... Uh, I'm really bored. Just worked out a Biology past paper... And now I must do maths, because uh, duh, vellabonell will shout if I don't. Wheee. take advantage

[03 Apr 2003|10:05am] I have all new icons! go see! http://www.livejournal.com/allpics.bml?user=mercys_enemy The ring one was made by cryptical 1 hang me out to dry take advantage

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